another one of those depressing love type poems... appologies!

I like you, but you show no interest.
I'm not quite sure what to do, what is best?
You look over and sadness you display,
but still no interest in me you pay.
Implications and hints I have given
Perhaps I should return to my haven.
Possibly you will realize when rested
When I'm around you I feel light headed.
If I take a chance you just step away
How am I supposed to know what to say?
Yesterday I shouldn't have been so shy
I should have gone over and said 'Hi!'
I tell you I like you, You don't reply.

For once this is not a love poem...

I thought I'd have another go at a sonnet, it's not great but I'm only young and I'm developing better poetry skills with each poem I write. This sonnet is about how humans hide emotions even from those they are closest to, and instead we let it build up inside of us. Enjoy, and thank you for reading!

Sonnet II

Sometimes I feel even when surrounded

by the biggest of crowds, that I am all…

Alone. By this you may be astounded,

for even though I cherish you all,

I cannot truly be myself. I must

hold back certain emotions and not share,

as I do not want them to be discussed.

These feelings I’m now unable to bare,

Soon I fear I may erupt. By locking

problems away inside, they may be trapped

from reality but stop denying,

I must now reveal the truth and adapt.

My friends you are, and the real me you shall

now see as we float along the canal.

I feel Like a Berk

It's unfair how you do this to me,

Never make me feel under the weather,

Making me miss you desperately,

You treat me like when we were together.

Back when I was in love with you,

You were comfortable to be around,

If there was one thing I would choose to do,

I would have stood my ground.

The feelings I’ve had for you,

Make it harder to look into your eyes,

Still friends, me and you,

But I feel I am telling lies,
I still see you as something more,

Perhaps I should not open that door…

But the truth must be told;

When you smile, it warms me,

Your hands I must hold,

Those lips; I wish to kiss me.

But it cannot be.

If once it did not work,

It must never be.

I feel like a berk.

AS Results

Well... I wasn't close off my estimates tbh :) I'm still kinda disappointed but happy at same time xD.
I thought I'd get an E in Psychology... which I did. My teacher thinks it needs re-marking though as she thought I deserved higher xD
I got a C in English Literature :'(, I thought I'd get a B so I'm kinda disappointed. I know I wasn't far off but it's my favorite subject!
I got a B in Photography, thought I'd get a C which is good. But I CANNOT WAIT TO DROP IT!
Then in Media Studies I thought I'd get B... I got a freaking A which I am extremely pleased with :')!

UNFORTUNATELY I have found the grade boundaries and I was about 5 marks off from a B in English Literature :'( and 2 marks off from a D in Psychology... boo!

Life in General

Why is life so incredibly confusing?

When you're little you just think you sail through life, and all adults tell you to enjoy life whilst your young... but then there's school and if you mess around you usually end up not doing well in life. It's a huge contradiction! It's just like when your parents yell at you for not staying in and doing homework etc... but then when you stay in loads they get irritated that your always in and start telling you to go out more. That has happened to everyone at some point right? No... just me? Okay then...

Anyway, the real point is that as I am now 17 and about to go into my second year of Sixth Form, I have to start thinking seriously about what I want to do with my life... for now I don't really have my heart set on any job. But I pretty much have to start applying to uni ASAP, bearing in mind I don't have a clue what I want to do. I really wish I was back to being 7 or something...

Also I get my AS results tomorrow... I'm predicted all B's but I reckon I will get BBCE. And the E is on the hopeful side of things... If I pass Psychology (which would be the E) I will be so incredibly happy as I really enjoy it, and that I can finally drop Photography! But then again as I will more than likely get an E, that means I have to go to a meeting on Friday :S, I still hope I pass though! BUT if I fail, I will be devastated  And I'll have to carry on with Photography :| but, if I fail then at least I will have chosen what to do at Uni and in life...

So even though, these are not my final A-Level results a lot still counts upon them, and this terrifies me so much! But "everything happens for a reason", and "what will be, will be". Another strange event occurring tomorrow is that after almost 5 years... my hair is returning somewhat to its natural colour. The funny thing is, is that as my hair is purple at the moment, I reckon I will give some of the teachers at school a fright hehe :) And I suppose the bright, odd colour somewhat helps to built confidence. YouTube helps too! Just as writing this does, although one thought running through my head as I type, is that I could pretty much say anything as no one reads my blog, of if they do, it is likely they got bored after the first 2/3 paragraphs. Although if you are still reading thank you, you are AWESOME and hello :)!

Oh I FINALLY got my first job, not that anyone is actually reading this, but I am seriously happy, and cannot wait to start! Life is also pretty confusing for many other reasons such as the choice on whether to start driving lessons, and guys... but the male human is a confusing species in general. But I think I am pretty much happy as I am for now, I have wonderful, amazing, crazy friends who I love, and so when a new guy finally comes along... lets hope he isn't too scared of the crazies to stick around :)

Anyway I am going to post this now and shall sit in fearful anticipation for my results, and hopefully everyone receiving results today, and any other day of the year will achieve as they hope! I shall hopefully update my blog tomorrow, with my results, if I do not feel too ashamed! <3

My attempt at a sonnet... which mostly consists of half-rhymes!

Sonnet I

Why is i that my heart must beat for two,
when feelings are not returned from either?
Polar opposites, though there are a few
ways in which similar: kind and clever.
To the first, my love remains un-returned.
The second's heart, belongs to another.
His love I once had but away I turned,
and because of that my heart must suffer.
For he is my hearts deepest desire.
I wish he knew about the way I feel.
This poem I write for him, I shall post.
I shall write my name and close with a seal.

Now I know who my heart beats for the most.
However, this poem I cannot post.

Unknown

Where should I go?
What should I do?
My options are not low,
But what about you?


MY heart skips a beat,
When I think about you.
So take a seat,
And give me a clue!


Where should I go?
What should I do?
And so...
Who are you?
All is Unknown.

That Tree

Hey! Look there! Behind that tree...
I want to go and see,
It fills me with glee,
And makes me feel free.
Make sure not to bang your knee,
When you look around that tree,
I think you will agree,
That you will not flee,
When you look around that tree.

YouTube

Hello :) I'm going to tell you about an obsession I have. I cannot go day without visiting YouTube, let alone an hour without mentioning it or thinking about it. I know it's a bit weird but everyone has a website they LOVE! Don't you? NO? Oh dear, maybe it is a wierd obsession but if you share this obsession, you may feel you would like to take part with part of that site, so I know no-one really reads my blog. But in case you happen to stumble across this page accidentaly... It would be really great if you could check out http://www.youtube.com/fiveradicalgirls as I am Monday. Today I uploaded for the 12th week, and I wrote poem about Monday...

MONDAY

Today it is Monday,

It aint no fun day,

And each weekday,

You'll get a radical girl-ay.

The youngest is Thursday,

I haven't yet  missed a day,

That's if you count Charl-ay,

Who did a Friday on Monday.

Don't let me scare you away,

With the things that I say,

Instead, just laugh away,

At my multiple word play.

I've never had an x-ray,

My oldest friend is Wednesday,

As children we would play,

Lastly I Must say...

   That I Love my day!

So that was my poem, again it is supposed to be somewhat humorous!

I also realized today that I was born on a Monday, and so this day is all the more special! Thanks for reading :D

Some silly poems I wrote...

Scrabble
Today I played Scrabble,
And made up a load of babble,
Like shabble, flabble and dabble,
It was my first game of Scrabble.
And as you can see,
I’m not talented with thee,
Art of playing Scrabble,
Because I make words like rabble,
When really I should make words like psychobabble.

Underpants
I was told to write about underpants,
So the first things I thought of were ants,
I’ve got ants in my pants,
And I’m going to my aunts,
What am I going to do?
I could dance in my underpants,
Or plant some plants for the ants,
These ants are such tyrants,
And I want them out of my pants!

Curtains
The curtains are drawn,
And it’s nearly dawn,
People think I’m withdrawn,
But I have a friend Shaun…
He doesn’t have much brawn,
But he likes to mow the lawn,
I stifle a yawn…
Maybe I am withdrawn?

Hannah
Hannah,
Your name rhymes with Montana,
But you're not Hannah Montana,
It also rhymes with Savannah,
And urbana and banana.

You are a top banana,
And like to drink tropicana,
Aspecially if it's from Indiana,
Because you're Hannah Indiana.

Another Poem... Based Upon Nothing

It's the way he looks into my eyes,
The way he makes me feel,
The way his hands sweep my thigh,
And his sex appeal.

The way he brushes back my hair.
And holds my face sweetly,
The way he sits in his chair,
And smiles Discreetly.

He strokes my cheek softly,
And makes me feel special,
It's the way my heart beats boldly,
The way he is so gentle.

As our lips touch my heart thumps,
I feel like I'm the only person that matters,
He gives me goose bumps.
But we both know the feeling will soon shatter.

Our spark has departed,
For he belongs to someone else,
Our love uncharted,
But my heart still melts,
For I, am eternally his.